Peaceful Mind

wow..this is a wonderful and fulfilling day for mi... i wake up early this morning to go to church with my cousin and distant cousin.. It has been a long time I go to church...i like the feeling to be in church as you can feel God's love. This touches mi.

i feel that service for today is like meant for mi... God seems to know that I'm coming back and want to heal my wound...He knows that i have deep wounds and I'm hurt...Time dun really heal my wound.After the service, i really feel different and better..I learnt that wat can really heal my wound.

So i like to share with u all...wat i learn...
6 Don'ts
1) dun ignore the hurt
2) dun run away from the hurt
3) dun hide the hurt
4) dun worry for the hurt
5) dun resent the hurt
6) dun give up


I want to open my heart and express it.I want to stop to have worries and start working on my problems.I want to face it and dun want to escape from it anymore.So i will keep trying until i get a solution for my problems.

My life is not as smoothing as i expected. My expectations are high, therefore hard to reach. As i struggle to reach them, i fall off and injure myself seriously. I dare to dream but the more i want to fulfill my dream, the more hurt that i get in the end. I push myself too hard until dead end. I face setback in career, relationship and study.Fail to get into local University. Being backstab by colleagues. Ditched by my boyfriend who is with me for almost 4 yrs.Can't take it..i decided to give up. So i did some thing foolish....

I have been thinking why I'm a failure.Cos after that incident, my wound is not totally healed. I get myself into another relationship. I care about him and giving him my full attention.But in the end, i can say it is a retribution. When my previous ex give mi care and attention, i find it is irriating.Both relationships end suddenly..Can't get a job tat I'm interesed.When i want to go to study full time in SIM, i have to wait until next yr sept.. sianz.. Again, i suffered from all this setbacks. Still lost in direction as i get no answer for why it is like tat.I choose to ignore and hide it..If in the past, i will break down and cry. Everyday I laugh and joke with friends..But in my heart, i'm suffering and very unhappy.

Although I'm not totally heal, but at least I know wat to do. No longer ignoring and hiding my hurt.Face it bravely.
Learnt my lesson that life is precious and realize this really hurts those who really love and care for mi.I believe God is giving mi chance and wants mi to start my life afresh! So must treasure and grab all the chances I have. Live life to the fullest w/o any regrets.

To take a step out, i choose to understand my problems.. Relationship will fails depends on a lot of reasons. so wat is the actual reason, no one knows.Only the party who choose to give up will know. Wat for to find out the reason as it will make mi more hurt. Everyone needs a breathing space.. Wat meant to be yours, will be yours if both of you are fate to be together. Can't be boyfriend and girlfriend. Maybe will become buddies as you know each other too well unless you have an open mind.For career and study, do my best is enough. Dun force myself to be the best as i'm too ambitious previously.

I have to keep all this words in my mind..
If yesterday didn't end up the way you planned, just remember GOD created TODAY for you to start a new one!The best is yet to come!
This msg is sent by Nicky, my FYP partner.I believe tat i can do it! Thanks God!