Home Alone

resign from my job liao. 3 more weeks to exam. after exam, i have to look for job.
Now i'm at home alone . i'm going to be alone with 2 babies as dad,mum n bro are out of town.
last time dad n mum go 4 tour, bro still at home. at least still got some1 with mi.
all alone this time and hope i can spend time 2 prepare for exam.
mum wan mi to learn to be independent and learn to let go watever not meant for mi.
Having a mixed feeling. seeing friends stepping into next stage of life but looking at myself and my own r/s. i just feel like shutting myself up in my own world. dun feel like hurting myself or other. i feel tat i have given my family and friends enough troubles and worries. dun wan to let them down and make them angry again. i know that i have said a thousand times o f "sorry" is not enough for wat they have done 4 mi. Depression just hit mi again. Fear is there again. keep telling myself control and dun cry for something that dun worth.as everything b/w us has been settled and he has began his new r/s and carried on with his life.
i just have to say thanks for family and friends who are there helping mi and i know i have disappointed u all once again.
sorry for wat i have done to hurt u all.
i know i m still struggling with my emotions. i need time!
"Ger,wake up! you have to stand up! Be brave and strong!
No 1 is prefect! wat has past, it's a past! no one can help u. only yrself can walk out of yr darkness."
hope i can pick myself up!