Confused state

I'm alone in the lab now.
Sch TA has gone home...
it is raining...
i m in a confused state..
first my fever come back.
Backstage is involved in today rehearsal..
still dunno whether i should go or nt.
i feel sadz tat i din do much on the zone new site.
cos i cant think or cant focus.

am i hungry?
but i scare i gain back my weight..
tell myself tat i have to go on diet again.
is it becos i m stressed tat y i wan to eat?

birthday is coming.
my days are used for work and Easter production.
i left with 4th april(whole day) and 6th april evening.
but should i serve on 4th?
i only manage to settle with my sec sch best pals, ling & yan for lunch on coming sat...
the rest?
all my friends are asking wat are my plans?
go where for dinner?
where to chill out?
got any suggestions of places to chill out and dining?
wat i really wan?

Update on 26 March
despite my feverish, i go 4 rehearsal.
God is good!
i feel recharged after that. Now i feel better.
i really love it...
it is fun to hang ard with the backstage team...
spoken to one of the ASM... i decided not to serve on 4th April.
spend some time with my family n friends.
since my dear buddy Jane is willing to spare one day 4 mi.
she is the busiest among all, always busy..dunno busy with wat..lolz
thanks pals.. for posting suggestion for dining and chill out places on fb.
i m asking another favour...any1 willing to lend a helping hand to plan 4 mi? lolz