Run toward HIM

I'm a person who suffer from depression.. these days i feel so happy.. Esp when my distant cousin Sylvia tells mi tat my cousin Annie say tat i have changed and happiness is in mi now.. i really thanks Lord for changing mi...
But these days, depress strike mi again.. becos the stress of my assignment and exam are near... Friends make mi feel disappointed.. esp the friends i brought to church and i get to know them from internet.. From wat i known from them, they dun have much friends or trusted friends they can turn to .. i admit tat i tell them u can find friends in church..some one who u can trust.. u may also find gf/bf or soul mate there.. but the main purpose is to build relationship with God and believe HIM and walk in faith with HIM..
But in the end, i get to know that their main purpose is to find gf but building relationship with God is not their piority.. y did they accept Christ at first? Did they ever think of building a strong relationship with God? They dun wan to change their life?Is it a waste of money n time to go church n cell grp? This make mi have fear to bring friends to church in future as their mindset is not to know more abt HIM.
I'm so depress and being bad temper until i cant focus on my assignment.. I keep thinking..I'm not in gd health liao..i wan to encourage them and brought card f0r them but i fail to do tat...i dun have a big forgiving heart or maybe becos of the depression status i'm in now.. as friend who know mi longer than my net pals dun understand mi and think as the same way as wat the other think of mi.. I'm a ger who need respect...I'm not a slut.. Pls give mi some respect if u treat mi as a friend...
I open my heart to be true to u all, my friends.. some of u may nt open heart to mi.. i know tat everyone have the right to choose.. as we may have something which he/she promise other not to tell.... i feel tat some people juz looking on the surface and dun look into their heart.. some are juz 2 head snake who can be can nice in front of u but nasty behind u...or an attention seeker...Cant we be more simple and juz help each other to grow, mature, prosper and glorify HIM? But people's mind are not so simple and hard to figure out...All i want to see them to be a better person...it juz give mi all these headache...Asking myself: Can i be more heck care of my friends? Can i stop carrying all my friends' troubles on my shoulder?CAN I BE STOP BEING A KPO?All i know tat it is hard for mi but i believe i can as God is always there for mi...
As i have my quiet time yesterday, i cry out to HIM.. i finally heard from HIM.. juz a simple word "No!"As i'm asking should i stop bringing friends to church....
although not a long conversation, i believe i slowly get to hear from HIM more...
Now i pray hard tat miracles do happen n dun wish to see them backslide... although i say i dun wan them as friend and dun care abt them...but in my heart i know as i still care for them as friend.. I really hope God will make a difference in their life like HE make a difference in my life.. as i dun feel my gastric pain, sadness and depression but feel joy in HIS presence...The most important thing tat i didnt backslide.. didnt run away from HIM.

I wan to thanks HIM for all the things he done for mi..
1) make mi happier than before
2) wiser a bit although still blur blur
3) not getting into physical injures as i'm always so clumsy and not careful
4) mi having gd result in 2 of my assignment
5)willing to listen to others and more teachable.
6)give mi a heart to change n a heart of worship
7)getting my lost laptop back if not my assignment will not be able to hand in
8)forgetting unhappiness in the past relationship until one of my pals mention it then i remember the unhappiness.

Lastly
Kelly & Michele, thanks for reminding mi to throw all my sorrows to HIM.Thanks them for sharing and listening to mi....

when your heart is sad and lonely
and yr friends seem far away,
turn to HIM and HE will drive yr sadness away
when a dear one seems to let u down,
when u long for a true friendship,
confide in HIM and he will comfort u
Jesus is your true refuge.
To HIM u can always flee
even when yr hopes are sinking,
HE will be your true friend
HE wil soothe your lonely spirit
HE will love and bless and say
Come to me and
I will comfort you
today and everyday

I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in Him I will trust. Psalms 91:2