Just get back from cell grp.. at first tot of doing my assignments first.. feel like sharing..today message is "God is my provider"HE is really good and really provide all we need.. Although all these happen according to HIS timing... but he provide my need just in time...Recently become a bit lazy..less motivted in my study...since young, i have the habit of doing my assignments last mintue... i will try to throw temper and stress myself when i dun get to finish it and submit on time... i find that there is a change in mi..HE has changed my life... i'm in better control of my temper.. look at more positive side.. although i didnt submit my assignment on time, but i get to finish it and submit it.. at first, i feel a bit frustrated...usually when the due time is going to reach.. i will stress myself.. start doing a lot of funny stuff.. break down and cry.. but i didnt throw temper and do all tat....most important, i want to thank Lord for favour... cos i juz call my buddy kelly to check on her status.. she wants to meet mi.. although i'm rushing for my assignment, i still arrange to meet her.. I bring assignment along and the assignment is a biz analysis report.. my english is nt so powerful...she offers to help mi with the assignment..if not, i will not be able to finsh the report...
Secondly, i have some finance problem.. as i didnt work and dun feel comfortable to get pocket money from parents.. as at this age, i should earn and support my parents... at the same time, i'm nt able to give any offering.. as my account is dry up.. therefore i wanted to get a part time job but scare tat i cant cope well b/w study n work.. but i still pray to get a gd job.. so tat i can fulfill the pledge..
especially when michele asked everyone to fill up the pledge amount for august, i keep asking myself should i submit the amount.. although it is juz a small amount... whether i have the money to fulfill it...the money juz come in time to fulfill the pledge...as Darryl return mi the money for buying the cake... Really thank lord...
Lastly, HIS words for today is a gd reflection for mi... my life is always filled with all these tests...
- Pressure Test :: Stress we faces from our surrounding
- People Test :: Relationship/Feeling with people
- Persistent Test :: How long we can stay on in a race
- Piority Test :: Who is the first in our life
Since the days in poly i have been facing a lot of pressure i give myself, i keep stressing myself to get good result to get into local university.. cant get into local university and unable to get a gd job making my thinking quite negative.. because of all these i suffer from depression...
People Test
I'm a person who mind a lot about wat people think and say abt mi... i dun like people talk abt mi behind my back but cant stand people say it straight into my face.. cos i cant handle my emotion well.. i will tell the person off or showing a face...
i always help friends whenever they need help... when i need help but no one i can turn to...
failures of my relationship make mi lost all my trust...esp words from my ex b4 they left mi :
"She is siao... cos she goes to IMH, she suffers from depression."
"being with you make mi feel so stress"
"among all my gfs, no one dare to throw temper.. u r the only one who throws temper and such a bad temper"
they once can love mi so much and need my love and trust.. in the end they betray mi...
Persistent Test
I'm someone who will try to persist on until i success..
but sometime i'm nt...
dunno it is because i feel tired of it or i dunno wat i wan..
or juz because i dun wan to be a loser...always want to win...
Piority Test
Since young, i tell myself tat i have to work hard to get into local university.. been putting my piority as study... but sometime i dun feel tat way.. cos i rather spend time with friends, go out to have fun...sometime i rather lie on my bed to sleep...sleep whole day w/o doing anything...
when i'm in relationship, i wanted to give all my best and time to him.. so wat is my piority in my life.. sometime i really dunno...
i know tat i need to face all these tests with my trust and faith in HIM from now onward.To set HIM as my first piority.. To seek HIM, i will find HIM.
i should start applying wat i have learned in the bible study and come b4 HIM and spend more time with HIM..
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